its been a very long time since ive updated my blog and i have a lot of things on my mind , so its about that time. I will update on everything that has happened since the start of my senior year but right now there are other things i want to talk about.
The following is a message sent to a friend by me on facebook earlier today . . .
"i wont be sad . for what ?
it was different before .
i didnt understand why he was acting the way he was if he wanted to be with me . . .
but now everything is different . everything makes sense now .
the only thing is him being with someone else , ima jus need to handle that correctly.
& im still gonna talk to him about stuff *.
this is not gonna phase me . he shouldve just been a man about it but he* is immature .
im not saying im 100% okay , but lets be real . . . im USED to this .
i might have a little moment once during the rest of the week but thats okay.
I always said that it was never gonna work with me & him . But i wouldve never known for sure if i didnt try .
& i tried and now i know .
Its okay. "
The past month has been all but pleasant for me. Drama is something that im never one to turn down , but this drama is one that i truly did not want. Especially since i vowed to have nothing but positivity around me for the new year . And all ive had was negative energy , people , and situations surrounding me. As far as THIS situation goes , im not sure about how i feel about it yet. Right now its just a numb feeling , im not upset or sad but i know that its a front. & im probably gonna feel it tomorrow . At first i felt like I felt like i wasted so much of my time. im not too sure . only time will tell . . .
