Dear Mr. Handsome ,

whatever makes you happy .

-- 2 . *

feelings can grow but . . .

they can go away too .

"2"

it`ll always be the same .

" you've died in my heart so go ahead , and live in her arms. "

hmph .

so I'm on my way home , walking & I'm glad i am because i have time to think . . .

so far my day is pretty shit*y . i mean nothing too bad happened , I'm just not happy with things in genreral . i will never understand some people & the games they play . seriously . some boys KILL me . But i guess i put myself in this situaton so i guess I've just got to deal with it .

fu*k it .

♥

Moment of honesty
Someone's gotta take the lead tonight
Whose it gonna be?
I'm gonna sit right here
And tell you all that comes to me
If you have something to say

You should say it right now

You give me a feeling that I never felt before

And I deserve it, I think I deserve it
It's becoming something that's impossible to ignore . . .

I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy
If you ask me I'm ready . . .

Im sitting here trying to find the right words to explain this person. Seriously. lets try, " perfect. " Honestly , and im being dead serious , i think he is the perfect person. there really isn't one thing i dont like about him. Homeboy definitely puts all the other boys i know to shame , lol .

But really , i haven't liked someone so much for who they are ever in my life. He is such a beautiful person inside and out. The way he speaks , the things he says. its so easy to connect with him on an intellectual level , its crazy. ugh , i could go on for days , there are so many things ! and dont get me started on this boys smile . its the most beautiful thing i have ever seen. & no matter how im feeling , seeing it always makes my day . plus hes funny . psh , im telling you , if you knew who he was , youd want him to.

it sounds crazy , but i remember the first day i met him , lol .

& i remember the first moment i knew for sure i liked him .

of course , im a girl , and you'd probably say "he's just another person that i like ." after all , thats what alot of my friends said ,until they seen how serious i am.

Im the type of person that knows what i want and goes after it. but when it comes to him , its like im not me. I cant even look him in the eye half the time , its that bad . He makes me so nervous. and im so conscious of everything i say or do around him. i cant help it , thats just how it is.

all this is simply a dream to me , because it'll never happen. only God knows why. But im satisfied. I thank God that i know him & being his friend is enough for me.

"I like the way you walk
The way you talk
The way you dress
The way you smile
I like the way you are
The way you ain’t
I like your honesty, integrity,
It levels me, so please don’t ever change"

Theres no need to try and figure out who he is , he already knows. & Im not dropping names. For now , i'll just call him

Mr. Handsome ♥

oh , its been a minute.

im gonna write tonight ,

i swear !

i'll be back.

Note to self 03102010

Dear angela ,

youre so much prettier when you s m i l e . . .

xoxo ,

angg ♥ .

Some people just don't deserve to be happy . . .

its true .


but what did I do to deserve this ?