i had a conversation with a friend of mine today and i was telling her how i was so tired playing the "strong girl " role .I wanted to let my guard down for once , experience things in a way i haven't before. . . So i did. Sometimes letting your guard down has great outcomes , in my case it was different.
Dear angg ,
"I can't explain why it's him . . .
& the end of the day baby I just don't want toSometimes he don't even treat me right . . .
But , when I'm with him, ain't nobody else like it
I'm so sorry baby that I have to do this to you
But I can't go on pretending...
Cause I love him, I love him
And I'm so sorry... do you hear me?
I'm so sorry but I love that man
I love that man...
He ain't always right, but he's just right for me . . "
xoxo angg ♥
I feel like im telling myself that. The True me , the real angela knows that this isnt her .
The old me would never ever ever ever put up to be treated this way. . . I used to look at girls like this and laugh at how stupid they were . I never thought i'd be that girl...
I feel like i let myself down in every way possible. I was always taught to fight for what i wanted , so thats what i did. But i began to lose myself along the way. & every day , every moment that it continues , i lose myself a little more. . . The true meaning of dying inside. so im stuck , do i continue to fight and lose me or give up and try to regain what ive lost ? seems like i lose either way.
I never forget , im grateful for my friends but at the end of the day , im the only one who can feel the pain , joy , or sadness that i feel . & im the only one who cries the tears i cry . . so no one can truly care because no one knows how i feel .
"so i put on my make up , i put a smile on my face. . & if anyone asks me , everything is okay. But im dying inside with my pride and a smile on my face .
its not an easy thing to do , sometimes its hard to face the truth , but what else can i do ?"
i guess it is what it is .
No comments:
Post a Comment