so I'm laying here @ 6 a.m. with my ipod & my sidekick . . .I'm getting angry over something ( or should i say someone) @ 5:30 a.m. . . how ridiculous ?!
and now , unfortunately , my whole day is gonna revolve around this thing ( or should i say PERSON ) . that's not how i want it to be , but i just KNOW that it will . because when things bother me , & i can't do anything about it , it`s constantly on my mind . & i Hate that about myself . & with this particular thing , I'm just here , HOPING , PRAYING & WISHING that things will get better . but they're still the same . Ugh ! i remember this one fight , when this (very special , very ex - important ! ) person said " its sad how much i affect your life . " & I'm there just like d a m n ; it IS sad , because you DO (a*shole) . recently , I've been trying to change that . because being in love , is just like being addicted to drugs . . . your body becomes so attached to this one thing , & you need it or want it all the time . & you become this person who is not who you used to be . you know its killing you , but you just can't stop. & when you do finally find the strength to stop , it feels like your whole world came crashing down on you in a matter or moments . . . anyhow , its about 6:20 a.m. now and i have to get ready for my day . i`ll check back in later to tell how it went .
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