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November 3rd ♥ . . . My favorite day . This day for me , 2 years ago , A WHOLE LOT of things began to change . It is a day that will always be special to me , always & forever . I wish i could sit here & get into what this day means and how it became to be , but there honestly is no need to. I know what it is to me , & that's all that really matters. As much as i put on this blog , this is simply too special to share , as well as it is too special for anyone to understand .

"today is my day to indulge and reminisce in the past .i might be happy , i might be sad , i might even cry alittle bit but its gonna be a happy cry . I'm jus gonna reflect on everything that happened , good , and bad and be thankful that it happened to us and that it helped me grow and made me better :) " . . . a text message i sent to a friend.

_ Je vous aime plus que la musique ♥ . *

-- Mrs. Promise Breaker ♥

. enoylnoruoyebotemit *

you never lied to me , not once .
its not your fault that i can't trust .
its in my past , its in my path
& i can't go there . . .


1.2.3.♥

Random Fact of the day 08/15/09

10,000 u.s. teens become infected with a sexually transmitted disease . EVERYDAY . . .


i was reading something that said this . . . something to think about for you youngins out there .

its amazing how much meaning a simple song can have . . .

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one

& though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid

that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out . . .

You claimed you've had the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
{ I'm happy to say }
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away, away with you....

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

. . . This USED to be the song . . . It explains it ALL . . . Not everything in it is true for me now. Beyonce is the BEST ♥

Angelique is officially a licensed driver !

YES ! I got my license today ! I was horrified that I was gonna fail my driving test but i did pretty dang good ! lol

2 days ago i couldn't parrallel park to save my life . but i did it in one try on the test. everything else was pretty much perfect lol !

my father didn't believe it and he wanted me to fail. Now he knows he's gotta get me a car .

Anyhow , I'm happy I passed & thankful that that's over with !

This is Long overdue . . . 
 
  I was in the hair salon reading Cosmo mag , with the Lauren Conrad cover , when an ex best-friend sent me a message on aim. Ironic , because I was reading Lauren's article while chatting w. her . Everytime I watch the (newer seasons) of The Hills , I am always reminded of me and her. Just because of Lauren and Heidi . Just because of their situation. A friendship wasted over a certain situation. Or shall i say , a certain someone . 
 
  My freshman year in high school was fun. Mainly because you were my bestfriend. Forreal , we really had some good ass times. lol , from the " quotes of the day " just to our conversations. You alwayss had me laughing. & you put up with all my nonsense . I really couldn't have asked for a better bestfriend then. Everything used to be all good. 
 
  The that person came along. everything changed. I don't wanna go into too much detail because being who i am today , i just don't feel that it would be right. But you & I know what happen , even though we have different perceptions of it. Don't let anyone tell you ANYTHING about this. People have a lot of different shit to say , & don't know a damn thing about what REALLY went down. I know that from first hand experience. 
 
  So what happened , happened. First it was fine , or so I thought. Turns out that everyones true feelings weren't known. Truth is , If I would've known that you Did have a problem with it , I wouldn't have done it. I'm not the type of person to let someone tell me what to do . But you were my Bestfriend and i respected your opinion. But you gave me the go-ahead so i did. 
    blah blah blah , that happened . went from good to bad to good to bad to worse . then you did what you did & got your playback or so you felt. I don't know but I felt that you were told lies. About me , i mean. From that person. You never really told me much about what they said but i Just have a feeling that it wasn't the truth. As far as anything concerning me. I don't know what happened , and even if i did I wouldn't get into that on here . 
 
  I know that you don't know this , But i always had your back. Everytime someone came and asked me something about you , believe it or not , I always defended your name. I guess , they believed that since we had "issues" I would go and run my mouth about you. They were wrong all of them. Know that I never told your business. That shit is so wack to me. For me to go and talk about you when we weren't cool , wouldve been the wackest shit. & not even that , you WERE my bestfriend. It just wouldn't have been right to do that. 
 
  We used to be fucking inseparable. yea, those were the good old days. so when things got reallyyyy bad between us , it hit me. Yea i had the " fuck this shit " attitude , but that's just because that's who i am. You know that about me. I have an attitude. But I'm being honest , deep inside ,  that shit h u r t . Idk about others but when it comes to me , (Best) friendship is important. For Kasandra , Aneissa and you , if there's drama between me & one of you , i feel some type of way. All my other "friends" know that if you do me wrong , its over right then and there . No 2nd chances. 
 
  I guess we tried to reconcile , at least that's what i thought. It just wouldn't seem to work though. Feelings were still inside of people. At least you and I gave it a try. & I thank you for that. For most of the time , the worst thing for me wasn't that what happened , happened . It was the fact that I lost a person who I had grown so close to. I wish we could've stayed friends. 
 
  People ask me if I could've changed something about the situation , what would it be ? & I always tell them nothing . Yes , it was a bad situation. But I probably won't do anything different if I had the chance. Just because everything happens for a reason and dealing with that , helped me grow. 
 
  I can't write everything I felt in this entry , there isn't enough time in the world to explain . so I`ll say this 
 
  Avril , I wish things turned out different. But I can't change the past. I wish i could re-live the moments we had a bestfriends , but i can't relive the past. " There's a blessing in every lesson." & it was a good experience , everything that happened. I seen a side of you that a lot people who have blunt opinions of you haven't seen. You are a fun & good person. I still miss the good times . I miss our phone conversations , I miss our Lunch times , walking home together . I miss telling you things that I could only say to you and no one else just because we had that bond. . . . everything. & sometimes , seeing you and not saying anything is hard , really hard. Its not easy nor is it fun to lose a bestfriend. & its funny because we became so close soo quick . But that just made our friendship even more special. People who were outsiders , looking in on this situation have no clue what it was like.  
 
  I can't be sorry for what happened , and I'm not. Only because that situation made me realize a lot of things about how people are and how and who i am. But i am sorry for HOW it happened. Maybe one day , we can go out somewhere like we always planned , back in the day lol , but never did , lol  . I dont think that we could ever go back to being how close we were just because of the sitaution itself being soo fucked up ( we both know it was not worth it ) . But i am glad that at one time i was able to call you my bestfriend. Regardless , I hope you are happy in whatever it is you are doing . & I wish you the best. 
 
-- angg .

Quote of the day 7/31/09

"Love aint got sh*t to do with it , I will always be who i am . " . *

"You know girls talk "

Females Talk a lot of shit . . .

- Miss Powerhappy .

I AM . . .

I'm 17 now ! yayy ! I'm kinda late ( my birthday was on July 23rd ) but it is what it is . This was the BEST birthday everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ! honestly . . . For my birthday i got tickets to see my MOST FAVORITE , MOST ADORED , & MOST GREATEST PERSON EVERRR 1 Beyonce ! I am PROUD to say that i am obssesed with her . people who know me know that i love her more than i love life itself . anyhowww i got 2 tickets to her I AM tour . . . in the 3RD ROWW ! Omgggg . it wassssss the bestt . i cried :-D . . . lol i always look at those people who cry when they meet celebrities and be like "why are they crying ?! " lol . But this is different , Beyonce is more than a celebrity , and she is NOT a regular person like everyone else . i don't care what anyone says !

i didn't believe i was going to see beyonce , but when she came out , I started Crying ! and All i could say was " omg its beyonce , its really beyonce ! " no one knows how much i really love her . NO ONE .

The Show was AMAZING . that's not even the word honestly . . . Then She touched me ! I could've died . all together that night i cried 5 times . . . In the beginning , then when it was over , i seen one of the twirlers . and she was like " omg it was so good " and i started crying again lol . Then twice more in the car and once again when i got home .

words can't even express how Happy i was . . .

oh yeah , matthew knolwes walked past me and joe jackson ( Micheal jacksons father ) was standing right behind me .

I can't wait for the next time I meet Beyonce . . . I`m already excited .

( videos of the concert are up on my youtube )

I AM . . .

The greatest Beyonce fan ever ♥ .

SO ! i know i haven't updated in a while . . . but here i am . Its july 15 , 2009 . which means there are 8 days until my 17th birthday ! I'm getting old :/ . today was an okay day . . . went through the same ol drama that i go through everyday . along with those emotions . but hey , it is what it is . . .

on the brighter side of today ;

i am satisfied ;)
thank you ♥ .

i cannot wait to see what the next two weeks is gonna bring :) .


- angg .

" there's a pride in every American ♥ & its time to make a change . "

yes ! My favorite holiday is here ! I am currently on the balcony of my Brooklyn apartment building as i write this . . . Looking the fireworks . July 4th , is just another day to watch fireworks and not to mention Barbecue to A LOT of Americans , which is extremely dissapointing to me . There is nothing wrong with that , but people reallyyyyyyy nevermind the true meaning of "july 4th" . the reason why i love it so much .

A lot people don't know this about me , but i am way too Patriotic for someone my age. My close friends know , & anyone who i talk about war with finds out . I Love my country . Deeply . & i love our armed forces . Ever since i was a freshman , I always wanted to go into the Military after high school . But i rather not let people know that to reduce the negative comments . . . .
I believe that those who serve my country are the Greatest Heros . Why not be apart of that ?

One of my favorite songs is "Proud to be an American " and now that my favorite person Beyonce recorded it , i Love it even more !

I , personally think that , we should have an Independance week . solely because a day for celebrating American freedom is just not enough for me . I will say this . A lot of African-Americans do not appreciate Independance day . & they could use the EXCUSE of saying that "we" weren't free on that day . But truth is , if America didn't gain freedom , Us African Americans wouldn't even be in question .

Anyhow , I'm so excited my favorite holiday is here , and instead of going to barbeques , i watch patriotic movies , and then watch fireworks . I hope all come to enjoy this day , for whichever reason that is . Either way , I`m proud to be an American ♥

Happy birthday America .
& Happy Independance day .

Transformers 2

if this isnt one of the greatest movies ! After seing transformers I , i feel in love . . . shia lebouf , and josh duhamel are GORGEOUS & Megan Fox is badddd ♥ . but theyre nothing compared to someone (who i'll mention later )
so with that , i have 3 things to say :

1. Micheal Bay & Steven spielberg are genius'.

2. Transformers I and II are AMAZING movies .

3. F these WACK humans . . . . . .


i wanna marry Optimus Prime ♥

angela & optimus prime ♥
6.28.09 - foreverrrr

r.i.p to the greatest ♥

Greatest artist to ever live Micheal Jackson died on June 25th 2009 . It came as a real shocker to me . Being the performer that i am , micheal jackson was a true inspiration to me . Even before Beyonce , i hold him on a pedestal higher than any other artist. He was , and probably will always be The Greatest selling artist of all time . I remember when the 25 year anniversary of Thriller came out. I remember thinking " Damn , i WISH i could sell like MJ ." Which probably wont happen lol. I am grateful that i got my chance to meet him , alot that many others didnt get. It was a couple years back , i was in the city with my mother ,older cousin and some other people. we waited for hours . . . and i mean H O U R S . & he finally came. it was Great . Ther is so much i could sit here and write about , about how much i loveeee him , about how a great musician he was , but unfortunately , i dont have all the time in the world. Its a sad thing to see , and im glad that i lived in his lifetime , so i know his music and his story in a way that next generations , and my little cousins , and future children wont be able to see . Im sure he got to see and experience all that he wanted in life. So this is my personal goodbye to Performing great , Micheal Jackson . rest in peace.

The following are of my favoriteeeeeeeeeeeeeee songs and videos from Mr. MJ .

Remember the time ♥ ( my fav everrr )

Black or White ♥

You are not alone ♥

I lovee this one so much . If im crying ,, you know im playing this song.

Butterflies & hearts;

You rock my world ♥







"In a world filled with hate , we must still dare to hope . In a world filled with anger , we must still dare to comfort. In a world filled with despair , we must still dare to dream. & in a world filled with distrust , we must still dare to believe. "
-Micheal Jackson .

its amazing how much meaning a simple song can have . . .

i never really was a Fan of Maxwell's but boy am i GLAD hes back .
I absolutely LOVE all his new songs , starting with this one.
I loved this song since i first time i heard it.
& one i got hold of the lyrics , i loved it even more.

it reminds me of the infamous Mr. Promise Breaker .
{Lyrics adjusted )

Pretty Wings ♥



Time will bring the real end of our trial
A day there'll be no remnants, no trace, No residual feelings within you
& one day you won't remember me.
Your face will be the reason I smile
But I will not see what I cannot have forever
I'll always love you. . . I hope you feel the same.

Oh, you played me dirty, your game was so bad
You toyed with my affection
Had to fill out my prescription for the remedy
I had to set you free.
Away from me
To see clearly
The way that love can be when you are not with me

I had to lead
I had to let
I had to leave
I have to live

If I can't have you
Let love set you free To flap your pretty wings around.

I came wrong you were right
Transformed your love into a lie
Baby believe me, I'm sorry I told you lies.
I turned day into night
Sleep till I die a thousand times
I should've showed you Better nights, better timesBetter days,
(& i dont miss you now )
but I'll miss you more and more

someone better is gonna love you .

my new fav song ♥

Taylor swift - You belong with me ♥

Goodbye's & New beginnings .

Congrats to the THS class of '09 on graduating on june 24th , 2009 . i wish all you guys the best in your future lives . I'm going to miss some of you guys . TIFFANY aka "yoooooo" ! I'm gonna miss ya funny ass od ! I'm glad we became as close as we did in the short amount of time that I've known you .You made me laugh at any time & i love you for that ! . . Kayla aka " kaylaaa babyy ! " No matter what , ilygirl . even though you ar stubborn , like me , we get along . & I'm glad to be your friend .

I'm gonna miss hearing "MISSSSSSSSSSSSSS KINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG " in the hallway all the time lol . thanks Gino . you deserve the title of Mr. sexii '09 . :) .

Everytime , since my freshman year , if I needed advice or I had a problem , there was one person who i knew could save the day . & I'm really gonna miss going to her locker after school or in the morning to talk . I'm gonna miss you ARIANNA ! lol , & I'm gonna miss you telling me how crazy i am !
Really though , I'm gonna miss her most. we had our bad times & I'm glad that's over . At times , it seems she was the only person who understood where i was comi ng from . & i hope that in the future , shell still be there if i need some advice .

& to the rest of my '09ners , good luck & congrats .

my newest addiction ♥

I've recently become addicted to twitter . . .i lovee it . but with that said ,

FOLLOW ME !

twitter.com/angelajasmine

ps .
don't you love my twitter page background ? :)

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"i love you , i will always love you . you own a piece of me . so , although you will be gone . you will never be forgotten . not by me . I'm sorry we never got our chance . i wanted to be yours more than anything . i wanted that so much . . . im trying to let you go so my soul can be at piece .

the only thing I've wished for since the day you were gone , was to see you again . i would've given anything just to see you , one more time .

Knowing you & knowing i can't touch you , is hurting me . but that's because , you're not real . you NEVER were . you can't be real . or at least not the person who i loved . so that must mean that I'm sick , or something is wrong with me . & that , i can't hope for that . i can't hope . . . you're not real ."

_ 3 . *

first time i ever i had my heart broken , it was by you boy . . .

i didn't wanna hear it , but i knew it would come .

so I've been learning to live without you now ,
but i miss you sometime .
the more i know , the less i understand .
& all the things i thought i knew , I'm learning them again .
I've been trying to get down to the heart of the matter .
its about forgiveness .

out of all the people in my life , who come and gone . you were the one who let me down & hurt my pride . but i put all the behind me . because life goes on . & if i keep carrying it on my shoulders , it'll kill me .

i didn't get my happily ever after , & my heart is so shattered .

so I've gotten down to the heart of the matter . because my flesh gets weak & the ashes start to shatter . & I've been thinking about forgiveness . . .

_Mr.PromiseBreaker.

--- my heart hasn't gotten there yet . but realizing that in order to fully move on & no longer be hurt by this situation , i have to forgive you , is a big step . I've never forgiven anyone , ever in my life . but I've never had an encounter with anyone like i did you . . . .

so sooner or later , i will forgive you . I'm waiting for that day because some things still seem to get to me . & baby believe me , every little bit hurts . and maybe we can be friends like we were before this mess began . & if not , then theres nothing more i can or will TRY to do . if you're happy in life , then I'm happy for you . after all , you being happy is all that i want ( no matter how many times i threaten to hurt someone lol )

with that said , i will love you forever and always , regardless of how you feel about me .

love ,
Mrs. Promise Breaker .

ps.
you will always be my mr. promise breaker . no matter how stupid you can be ! i don't care what anyone says !
lol .

" i know that i love you , but let me just say , i don't wanna love you in no kinda way . . . "

see eventually i will get through this , but right now it seems my heart's in the way .

& for the first time in a long time ;
I'm missing the hell outta you ,
Promisebreaker ♥ . . .

things between me & Number 4 , are over . -_- . something I'm not gonna talk about right now . . . but in reaction to that , I'm missing Mr.promisebreaker a whole much . its crazy but my heart just goes right back to wanting PB when something ends . & i think its becuase that's my safe zone . NOT my HAPPY zone , but just my safe zone . that's what I'm used to . I'm used to that feeling & I'm used to dealing with all the nonsense that it brings . its crazy how my mind works . but i literally felt that e x a c t moment when i went back to "wanting PB . " something changed , & the happiness that I've discovered over the past weeks disappeared .

I'm gonna be honest , i Hope this doesn't last .

don't get me wrong , after all the bullsh*t , i still can say that the (good) person PB is amazing . & I'm glad that i knew him . . .
now the other side , is a different story .

but i can't afford to go through what i did again , feel how i felt or be that "crazy girl ."

we will see .

ps .
i write it cause its real . don't like it ? don't read it . . .

i have to do this . -_-

happy 3rd .

. 115320712PB *

♥

babygirl , I'm sorry *

so I'm basically dying sick in my bed right now , I've been in bed all day . but that's not the reason why I'm writing this . . . recently , its been brought to my attention that people have had my name in their mouth a lot . . . i was told something that made me think about other situations that lead to the writing of this .

My nigga , if i wanted to put your business out there i would ! if i wanted to dog you , i would ! lets NOT get that twisted .

and if there was any problem , you should've addressed me personally . we all know that , i have no problem with stepping to anyone about an issue that i have with them . & i let it be known if I'm feeling some type of way .

so , how about we all just keep angela's name out of our f*cking mouths -_- .

****** I'm wayy to sick to write more . i honestly can't even function . this fever is making me get more angry . & I'm stubborn so i had to post this . but if i write anymore right now , i might die . so i`ll be back to finish this later .

yoel .

So I'm in class , writing in my song book . & my best bud yoel decides he wants 2 write a song for me . So i let him . & here it is . . .

I saw you last night ,
In the window w. That girl .
Candles & rose peddles you treated her like a pearl .
So i woke up @ 5 , awake & alive .
& I'm leaving w. The kids , the money cause you're a pig.
So i left the stove on ,
& you'll be gone in the morn .
Cause my heart is torn .
Ima make you wish you were never born .
When ur dead & gone , i won't mourn .
Cause i did it .
Yeah i did it .
& I'm crazy like that .
When i see you in hell
Ima kill you again .

-By Yoel .

I gotta admit , i`d probably be the one to write something like that lol .

oh !

I'm here laying in bed @ 7:30 p.m on a sunday evening . . . sick =/ . ughh . i have to get better by tommorow . i have school , my number 4 & twirling .
ahhhhhh twirling . i`m a captain ! I'm excited . i worked really hard all my years of being a twirler . not to become a captain , but just because i absolutley love flag twirling .( & i loveeeee being a shortflag ) the other captains are crystal , shacoya , catherine , joyella , carla & kenya . they're something like my bestfriends lol ( missing one :/ ) . but yeah i`ll keep posted on this season .

okay & Number 4 , is a person . ♥ that's my baby ! lol . its a rollercoaster ride -_- but for the most part , he keeps me smiling . . . this has been goin on since foreverrr . but its never been like this . . . well see where this goes .

. my first love *

Me (front & center) and my group Cameo* , performing at the 2008 annual T.H.R.E.A.D. talent show. (we won btw :] )

I ♥ PERFORMING !

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i fight only because its the only way I'm able to control this situation . so I'm fighting . physically , verbally & I'm throwing daggers at everyone who made this situation what it was . call me crazy , but that's just the way my mind works . i can't control the way i feel .

& the craziest part to me is that i honestly don't even wanna be with you . My heart won't allow me to love someone that wasn't real . that feeling just is not there for me anymore . but my mind has gotten so used to being all about you that i don't mind making more enemies than friends & i don't give a damn what people say about me . its sounds crazy , but that's how it is . & that's just who i am because that's who I've become .
thanks to you .

_ forevertofight .*

. quit your worrying baby *

& you just gon' keep hating me
. 115320712 *
. . . & we just gon be e n e m i e s . *

I'm soo worried about things from my past . & its not even things i know for facts . it a bunch of assumptions that are filling in my mind . there are so many questions i need to ask but am afraid to . . . i hate how everything always comes back to you . . .

¡ yo bailè !

back again . . . well , my day is going better than it usually does but its not as good as i want it to be .I'm currently in the emergency room as i write this , don't ask . shouts to Alexis vinson , Miles G. , Delenzo D. & Katrina . . . my Espanol II buddies . alexis and her trumpet . . . just kill me LOL . that girl is too much . Delenzo , thinks I'm crazy . your OD funny for no reason lol (ESPECIALLY when you're getting hit in the head with volleyballs :) ) . . . Katrina reminds me of the girl i 'don't like' named tia -_- katrina knows i like her anyway . & miles , miles oh miles . he's the greatest he's maddd sarcastic & doesn't even know it . & I'm about to hook him up with my friend paige aka my sunshine :) . . . i told you guys i would shout you out . lata !

. its like you were my favorite drug . *

so I'm laying here @ 6 a.m. with my ipod & my sidekick . . .I'm getting angry over something ( or should i say someone) @ 5:30 a.m. . . how ridiculous ?!
and now , unfortunately , my whole day is gonna revolve around this thing ( or should i say PERSON ) . that's not how i want it to be , but i just KNOW that it will . because when things bother me , & i can't do anything about it , it`s constantly on my mind . & i Hate that about myself . & with this particular thing , I'm just here , HOPING , PRAYING & WISHING that things will get better . but they're still the same . Ugh ! i remember this one fight , when this (very special , very ex - important ! ) person said " its sad how much i affect your life . " & I'm there just like d a m n ; it IS sad , because you DO (a*shole) . recently , I've been trying to change that . because being in love , is just like being addicted to drugs . . . your body becomes so attached to this one thing , & you need it or want it all the time . & you become this person who is not who you used to be . you know its killing you , but you just can't stop. & when you do finally find the strength to stop , it feels like your whole world came crashing down on you in a matter or moments . . . anyhow , its about 6:20 a.m. now and i have to get ready for my day . i`ll check back in later to tell how it went .

It is what it is .

not much to say , even though this is the 1st entry. it is what it is . its titled this for a very specific reason. ive learned that through all the drama and bullsh*t you go through in life , at the end of the day , when situations are done , thats it. theres no going back, you cannot change what you did , who you tried to hurt . . . ( lol trust me , this is the deal in most of my cases) and it is what it is. lord only knows how many times i have been "crazy" over something that happened that i couldnt control. so ive learned to say " it is what it is " & just move on. why did i start this blog ? people have many different opinions on me , and i dont blame them . we all , as humans , come off different to different people. i didnt start this to change my "image" or make people have a different perspective on me. those who know me best know i couldnt care less of what people think of me. i know i am and who i want to be. this blog actually is not that serious. friends always tell me that i should have my own reality show ( believe them) , so here it is. ill write about me , everyday things , true friends , "friends, " & peole who i dont like or get along with ( most of the people who consume my life now ) . people who know me , know that i am a "get iin your face" type of girl. some call me ghetto , some call me crazy ( well talk more about me later ) . Anyhow , just know that i will be putting people on "blast" or however you want to say it. whether i do it directly or in-directly , im doing it. thats it for now , im out.